Monday, August 27, 2007
i realised there was something very not right in what i said in my previous entry.
that of which when i asked if my own hands are safe hands.
i guess the answer is obvious.
NO.
my hands will never be safe hands. but i was yet again juz reminded that there iz someone else's hands which are the safest that which i can completely put my trust upon and into bringing me out of every situation in life. but as they always say, the most dangerous place iz the safest place. it's gonna take alot outta me, it requires more than juz what's this shallow ankle deep trust, understanding and simply faith. am i able to really entrust it all into my Master's hands.? and let Him put me through the fire?
let not my future be moulded by my hands.
but let it be moulded by Your Hands in Your perfect plan for me in Your will.
*throbs @13:17
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Sunday, August 26, 2007
"Always remember others may hate you but those who hate you don't win unless you hate them. And then you destroy yourself."
- Richard Nixon
Though it is rarely our first choice, forgiveness is always a better option than hatred and retaliation, not because it is an act of kindness done the enemy, but because it is an act of love we owe ourselves. Of course, we almost always feel our reasons for hatred are valid, and sometimes the entire world rallies around and supports our reasoning, but the truth is that hate can never be validated, because it keeps us from the light. And since light is what we are made of, hating others simply keeps us from being who we truly are.
you can have a temper and so can i. you chose to let yours loose and flare up in front of everyone go ahead. i've made my decision to supress mine and NOT be like you. you go ahead and bear your grudge, you're below my league.
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thanks laiyoong for the tips on clocking longer hours of studying.! it's NOW OR NEVER!!!!! rahhhhhhhhhhhh!!
"The difference between perseverance and obstinacy is that one comes from a strong will and the other comes from a strong won't."
- Henry Ward Beecher
Success in life is not so much a matter of hard work as it is always making certain you are willing and not "won't-ing".
i am willing to work on it. it refers to Alevels and it also refers to serving.
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"Put your future in good hands - your own."
- Author Unknown
Though it may not appear to be, your future is yours to mold as you see fit. Beginning today, make it your goal to use your God-given talents, whatever they might be, to create a bright and pleasing future and then daily commit yourself to its excellence, allowing your inner spirit to inspire you to learn and grow. In this way, you will not only determine what your future will be, you will be giving it your own personal brand. May you always be willing to mold yourself into who you want to be.
are my own hands safe hand.? but whatever it iz i still will and MUST be willing and really get down to moulding this future of mine. it's not a popular course but still it has requirements to meet. moreover it's the lowest cutoff already, take it or leave it.
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i seriously tink all these quotes from heartfelt blessings are freaky. somehow everything quoted in it iz always the right season for it. somehow i really juz falls back into place with life (:
*throbs @00:46
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Wednesday, August 22, 2007
wow.
i ran a half marathon for physio today!!! (: that means i ran a total distance of 21km. timing clocked : 2hours, 1min and 19seconds of running. geex.
tiring. now my right quad muscles are ready to cramp up anytime. :D but hey!! my first time running a half marathon distance.. and it sure does feel good (: sense of achievement!! =)
*throbs @18:50
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Monday, August 20, 2007
what if one day your leader's not around, how will you want the cell group to be like, what will you do.?
ownership of the cg. don't wait til the leader to not be there before you start doing smth.
be willing to start.(prev quote)
[Romans8:28]
And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.
the past week has been really hectic. coming home late at night from staying out to study with study buddy. in the end study buddy reaches home even later than i. bleh. sorry study buddy!! hope there's more pros than cons to having "chosen" me to buddy up with!! :p
well.. this wouldn't be about my week.
it's gonna be about
Joyce Meyer.
my thoughts.
encouragements.
and the simpleness in being excited and all things start falling into place for me (:
thank God for that (: thanks to my ABBA Father. =)
Joyce Meyer was really good. kinda regret not bringing my friends whom i had the original intention of asking them down. but well, she said one thing: don't waste today by regretting yesterday or worrying about tmr.
well she sure did say more than that, like...
-God delighting in bold and courageous spirit that steps out into the unknown seizing every opportunity like it's the last of it's kind.
-we can only seize the moment and it's opportunities when we start to relax, not worried nor frustrated.
-the rest of God iz for those who simply stop worrying about everything and juz believe!
so how long have you been standing around juz waiting for God to do smth in our lives.?
the problem with man iz that they are always only waiting for others to help them. but NO! we need to take responsibility upon our lives to try to help ourselves. which reminds me of that saying, how can others help you when you're not willing to help yourself.? so GET UP. help yourself by pressing through.
[Matthew11:21]
And from the days of John the Baptist until now the kingdom of heaven suffers violence, and the violent take it by force.
take it by force.
it's time for us to take that first step, be bold and step out.
it's juz bk telling us this iz the time to take ownership of this cell group of ours.. and it's also the time we did smth outta the words spoken! (: this iz not bk's cg. it's OUR cg. i'm encouraged by chmel. 9. i can do that again too.! i want it, so make it happen.! to bk: 17!!!!!!! :p i'm encouraged by the openess i can have with my spiritual daddy. (: i'm encouraged by torrance. yes now iz the time.
i'm going to persist on. and yes i'm excited. it's like it's juz nice, this season, the season for rising up, the season for wanting more and to make things happen. it's the season and yes, the harvest iz plenty but the labourers are few. i'm excited because i want to be part of the labourers committee. i'm excited because it's all about seizing the moment. this opportunity might not come knocking again, no it wont. i'm excited because it's all falling into place with the things that are going on around me. i'm bubbling with excitement because i know there's still that planA out there for me, no need to settle for planB/C! i'm bursting with excitment because i'm burdened and i want to make smth happen outta nth. make it happen.
it sure does feel good to be back in the flow with God. it really iz (:
ps.: congratulations to judith sim the new female MVP,
and kenneth lim the new MVP male.
jon became the pink shirt guy and hope your arm's better already!
ting and yuan have been great friends.
teamF the champion team (:
teamE(my playing team) rocks socks. (:
captain's ball championships have concluded with a BANG.
and yes, bk has confirmed. the subtitles of mediacorp tv has really become smaller!!! x)
*throbs @01:54
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Friday, August 17, 2007
"The secret of getting ahead is getting started."
-- Sally Berger
Planning a new and better life is certainly important, but it is only the beginning. An entire room filled with blueprints will not build a house. At some point, we have to pick up a hammer. May you always be willing to start.
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"When I was a Boy Scout, we played a game when new Scouts joined the troop. We lined up chairs in a pattern, creating an obstacle course through which the new Scouts, blindfolded, were supposed to maneuver. The Scout master gave them a few moments to study the pattern before our adventure began. But as soon as the victims were blindfolded, the rest of us quietly removed the chairs. I think life is like this game. Perhaps we spend our lives avoiding obstacles we have created for ourselves and in reality exist only in our minds. We're afraid to apply for that job, take violin lessons, learn a foreign language, call an old friend, write our Congressman - whatever it is that we would really like to do but don't because of personal obstacles. Don't avoid any chairs until you run smack into one. And if you do, at least you'll have a place to sit down."
-- Pierce Vincent Eckhart
Without the blindfold, of course, the game would not have worked. Life is the same way. Before any obstacle can be removed from our lives, we must stop looking at it. We have to put on our mental blindfolds, and reassure ourselves that any problem we might encounter is nothing more than a rest stop.
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"We fail to see that we can control our own destiny; make ourselves do whatever is possible; make ourselves become whatever we long to be."
-- Orison Swett Marden
If you want to find out how powerful you are, make up your mind to be successful: Heaven and earth will move to accommodate your decision. May the path to your success be abundantly clear.
*throbs @01:15
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Sunday, August 12, 2007
sometimes it hurts juz a little bit.
when you're trying hard to make it happen but others juz don't seem to get the essence of what you're doing.
press on.
it's for a good cause. and i'm gonna make it good.
with or without.
i'm encouraged by my worth in God.
*throbs @17:44
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Friday, August 10, 2007
"Kind thoughts are rarer than either kind words or deeds. They imply a great deal of thinking about others. This in itself is rare, but they also imply a great deal of thinking about others without the thoughts being criticisms. This is rarer still."
-- E.W. Faber
Try this experiment. For the next 30 days, do your best to suspend all judgment and criticism of others. Instead, wrap every person you meet in a warm and loving thought of kindness. Don't just limit this to physical contact, but apply it to everyone who comes to mind. And for those you consider enemies, make certain the thought is especially kind. There is a very good chance that by the time the experiment is finished, the way you habitually think about your fellow man will be forever changed.
*throbs @23:09
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happy ndp (:
and if you didn't realise it like i didn't until this morning.. ndp=national day parade. how do you wish someone happy national day parade.?! hmmm!! but yeah.
fun day. due to rain, the supposedly father-daughter cycling session got cancelled. headed out to study on a public holiday with study buddy. made him vomit blood :p
went for cg.
this iz us.
it was a really good message. the power discipline strikes hard. and obviously, 3values and role models and that shall be my motivation in life. and i've never said it.. but NADIA!!! you ARE my role model! (: and i'm really happy to have you as my role model (: thanks for being my motivation and inspiration and encouragment! (:
so yeah.. us again (:
winnie's mum's condo has nice scenery, nice wind and nice sun too (:
ben got hungry :D masterpiece by leticia (:
and soon after slacking around at winnie's mum's condo.. we headed to raffles place. to watch fireworks.
one of the many shots. but yeah. it wasn't as spectacular as it thought it would be. but i guess it's still fireworks and fireworks are still nice (:
well sums it all up. happy ndp.
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you know.. sometimes when you choose to think that certain words aren't worth value.. it's juz like the book i'm reading says..
"i broke one of the biggest rules of loving someone. i didn't tell you."
"i was so wrapped up with my conviction that action means more than words that i forgot the words are still important. and powerful. i had people say they cared for me on a whim. say thay'd be there for me then vanish. say they loved me when they didn't..."
"it's the importance of security and assurance."
doesn't speak much. but it does make sense to me. i wont say anymore and elaborate further into details cuz i know that no matter how much i say it doesn't make a difference. i guess sometimes it's still true to say that actions speak louder than words.. but how.? it all voices down to a very puzzling how.
i've been thinking..... importance of security and assurance.. you may not even want to hear those words but i've decided to say it anyhow. words ARE juz as important as actions. and because i have faith for you juz the way you had faith for me. KOKO. know that i'll juz be a call/sms away.
*throbs @00:52
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Wednesday, August 08, 2007
don't you juz have the hots for these lovely babes? (:
waterpolo girls team. YEAH! (:
*throbs @20:23
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Monday, August 06, 2007
today wraps it all up (:
water polo has officially come to an end. team came in 3rd out of 4teams (: well at least we didn't come in last. so it's an achievment. lost to SAJC and RJC but we won ACJC. 6-2. the rest of the scores i cant rem.
to think that earlier in the day i was thinking the probabilty of me going down to play iz pretty slim considering the number of better players and swimmers around. turned up i played pretty much. actually i played during all 3games except for the last quarter. boy can it be tiring. but i still thought water polo trainings with mr loh was more tiring. x)
so we played. first game vs ACJC. fresh start and we were all feeling fresh. the game got high due to adrenaline. swam, throw, struggled free. maybe it's cuz it's TJ's first match and they underestimated us. so playing center forward i pretty much didn't have my defender hot at my heels all the time. managed to free myself and scored a few from receiving nice passes from neritta (:
and the next few games i juz died. waha. fast break becomes slow break. couldnt catch up with my defender(i'm suppose to be following her like inches away all the time).. trapping water skills drop back to beginner breaststroke kicking, nomore swimming free style but breaststroke. ahhhhhhh!! the worse was when we were in offence, my defender was like ARGHHHHH. drowning and pulling and sticking like super close to me. pushing me nonstop. i had ZERO chance of taking any shot. rah. i need to get stronger for goodness sake!! well i got hugged wasit down with a motive to pull me back; i got elbowed in the shoulder and head a few times; and i got drowned a million times. bleh. and i made a stupid move. got excluded once and i scored a goal that was no count cuz i accidentally brought my other hand up to stablize the ball on my other hand to shoot. sharks.
but i guess on a whole it's still fun.
if i was given a choice to join water polo again, i would definitely say YESSS!! count me in (:
*throbs @21:04
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Sunday, August 05, 2007
(: back again.
really packed week i had.
31july, tuesday.
one picture speaks a thousand words.? (:
yummylicous. thanks study buddy for the treat!!! (:2aug, thursday.
went back to ahs. i miss the place. but so much has changed that i no longer am able to find a reason or anything to go back for anymore. other than my dear girls, i doubt i'll ever be able to step into the school and not feel out of place. sigh. i really miss the times. esp when i sat outside the "unbrella(which are no longer there)-tables" outside 2H classroom. remember the times we stayed back in school to study. i miss those years.
gave a chopchop bs to lynnette and leeying. isabel!! (: next session i'm gonna see you there too alright! (: even though it was juz a short while. i love the feeling of giving bs again. i want more of it. and i want more of the pre-bs sessions i have on my own. 3hours preparing for one lesson iz worth it because it was like a bible study for myself too. i want my VL lessons too!!!!
headed to city hall to meet study buddy again :D and erm. i tink we laughed very much harder this time round. geex. x) but studying sure iz made more fun by study buddy, right study buddy.? waha. sounds like some tongue twister. :p
3aug, friday.
the fantabulous FOP was on this weekend which i only unfortunately made it for the friday session. geex. it's a pity i missed the saturday and sunday session of it. pst phil pringle was like smashing good on friday. sunday would have gone up yet another higher level. ): sharks. well friday's queue was short though (: yayness. and i was really excited even before the event started. wow. and boy was don moen good. i want the songs!! anyone.? x) esp the one "he never sleeps he never slumbers he never tired of hearing our prayers..." gosh. (:
4aug, saturday.
went to ecp for 2.4run with the ahs girls. (: it sure feels good to be back in familiar ground. being part of what's going on in their lifes. and not forgetting, being able to meet the juniors not juz the girls who at least still do recognise me (: esp eugenia! (: miss that sister of mine (: ppl still do say we look alike :p
headed to get some stuff got home to prepare the potato salad and rushed to city hall to meet the cell group up for supposedly high tea at starbucks :D but turned out not. but anyway i had lotsa time to kill so i waited for the bus and taxi den bus and ya with them at city hall as they headed down for fop. well at least even though i didn't manage to make it for fop, i still managed to meet up the peeps up (:
headed to simei for the long awaited track bbq.. (:
jon picked weixiong, jud and i in his dad's car. gosh can he drive (: i wanna get my driving license soon too!! like erm. 3months more to go. rah.
went earlier to the condo to swim (: the water babes and hunks. :p cant help it. water juz rocks my socks (: before the bbq started i came with the mindset that whatever it iz, successful or unsuccessful gathering, big crowd or small.. i'll juz enjoy myself. and so i did. by being in the water. but it turned out the bbq was quite a success (: the people who said weren't coming came, food was sufficient cuz of jon's satays and chinkai's otahs (: jud's rice and my potato salad was comsumed even before the bigger crowd came. bleh. but whatever it iz i enjoyed myself. i hope the seniors who came did too!! i cant believe the guest-of-honours(ze and serene) ended up cooking the hotdogs and satays for us!! x) but SENIORS!! it was great seeing all of you again! and arvin tang! i want the photos! (:
so juz some pictures (:
osama's marshmallow that caught fire. 
the beautiful babe - ze (:
mr teo. our photographer ashraf said we both look like kids. baha!
jud, osama, weixiong, jon, me (: anti clockwise (:
the babes! (:
kaisheng the satay man. well at least he said he wanted to be that. x)
at slightly before 10, the water babes and hunks returned to their water paradise and had a SPLASHING good time!! (: diving and backflipping and frontflipping our way into the pool and making a heck of a time that the security guard was nice enough to keep extending the time we could stay and have fun in the pool (: until another grumpy security guard cycled by and asked us to come outta our paradise. sigh. night swimming iz really fun. and so after the gathering wrapped up at the condo, we headed to tampines coffee bean to hang out for a while (: juz sit around talking and enjoying the company. caught the last 28bus home. yL took the bus with me. homed. tired. zzzed. and yes ze. i fell. while walking toward the coffee bean i slipped cuz of water on the floor. landed hard on one knee and this iz the result. waha
mega blueblack. cant see it really well but you know it's there. that's my knee x) baha.
mega blueblack. cant see it really well but you know it's there. that's my knee x) baha. 5aug, sunday. today.
woke up at 8. david came by and we cycled to ecp. baha! my first time cycling outta my housing estate. waha! coolness (: it really was amusing. and when last night i learnt how to backflip, today i learnt how to ride up a curb whilst cycling and not stopping totally. x) so it can be true that we learn smth new every day! (:
yupp! so cycled. reached. had a few games for this miniature leisure cell group meeting. dodgeball. sorry od!!!! i'm still feeling quite bad i hit your head so hard with that darn ball. after that i softened pretty much of my throws. zzz. scary. and did i say? david makes a very good "angel/nurse" in the game of murder. waha! it was only towards the last two games or so (i felt) did the whole thing get better.
left together with david and deliang as they cycled me home x) waha. in the end deliang twisted his ankle. ahhhhhh!! geex. take care of that ankle alright! so we sent him home in taxi! i tink i'm a taxi repeller. :p only when i crossed the road did a taxi stop for them. and the thing iz when i was on the opposite side, all the taxis available (which was actually very frequent) became no taxi at all. AHhhhHhh!! baha.!
cycled home. managed to drag my dad to go grandma's with me. saw david on the way in the car. x) cool. my dad says he's a pretty serious cyclist. hmmm! are you one, david.? x)
hanged out at grandma's a while. napped a while. headed to water polo training. tiring. but fun. played 4quarters of dunno how long. seemed like forever. swimming endlessly and trapping water like noone's business. as you attack you feel hands on you trying to drown you. i went down a few times. and towards the end instead of swimming freestyle in the pool. i reverted to breaststoke. geex. it's really tiring. and you CANNOT catch up with the swimmers. fast and furious in the water. i need to build my water stamina!!!!!! but the game's tmr. so yeah.
BEDTIME! (: long story telling iz over. once upon a time...... no more. nights! (:
*throbs @22:36
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Friday, August 03, 2007
"There is good in everybody. Boost. Don't knock."
-- Warren G. Harding
29th President of US
Whenever you do something nice for another, or find something good to say and say it, you inoculate the recipient with kindness. Not only does this help build up his or her immunity to life's difficulties, it strengthens yours, as well. Kindness really is a miracle drug.
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wonderful days before and a really packed weekend ahead (:
lots of joy and never ending flow of it. wish i could juz dwell in the happiness the days had to bring. but mind you all you students out there. start mugging. the same goes to myself.
happy mugging (:
did i say we had NAPFA 5items on wed.? yeahhh (: it's gonna be yet another 30full points (: yes.! striving!
situps: 50
sit'n'reach: 63cm
standingbroadjump: 222cm
standingbroadjump: 222cm
inclinepullups: 30
shuttlerun: 10.28s
2.4km: ......? (make a guess!)
oh and hey! go find a study buddy if you dun have one yet. it's really fun to have a study buddy around studying together. right study buddy? x) thanks!
*throbs @14:53
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Wednesday, August 01, 2007
"For a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin. Real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life. This perspective has helped me to see there is no way to happiness. Happiness is the way. So treasure every moment you have and remember that time waits for no one. Happiness is a journey, not a destination."
-- John Phillip Souza
One of the major paradoxes of life is that we never get to where we want to be, until we realize we were there even before we left.
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"As you spread your wings to fly, you are opening your arms to hug the world."
-- Marla Cilley
From her book "Sink Reflections"
One of the greatest gifts you can give the world is to improve your own life, because as you raise your own energy, the vibration of the entire planet rises. The paradox in all this is, of course,that loving yourself turns out to be one of the least selfish things you can do. Neat, huh?
*throbs @21:00
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